Too sore to type tonight........

Day 89 of my 365 day blog challenge....

We played baseball today with Nathan and my wrists are super sore.  I'm sure that I have arthritis right now in my wrists and hands.  Swinging the bat, catching the ball and throwing was just too much for me to handle today.  They have been sore for about a week now.  So, it's late and I'm sore so I'm done for tonight.  Too sore to type and need to rest.

Sorry, still trying to understand this pain and figure out how to best manage it.

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Easter dinner isn't what it use to be...and i couldn't be happier

Day 88 of my 365 day blog challenge

My opinions and my beliefs are just that...mine :) I am not judging anyone with this blog but rather voicing my opinion.  With that said, read on if you may...lol

I have spent that last 30+ years of my life eating everything under the sun.  Meat, dairy, sugar, wheat, cola, crappy chocolates, chips etc etc......I never really noticed that I felt like crap until I decided one day to cut it all out! I have never looked back and nor do I feel the need too.  "Food" isn't what it use to be.  Today it's a multi-trillion dollar industry, most of it is made in a factory and it has so many ingredients in it that we can't even recognise it anymore.  More and more people are getting sick, cancer, strokes, heart disease and an overall general feeling of being unwell.   

I know that there are people who don't yet understand the concept of simply eating Organic Vegan raw fruits, vegetables, nuts and seeds.  Understanding that a whole food is simply that, a whole food.  A pepper is a pepper, an apple is an apple.  Nothing changed or added.  Fuelling our bodies with these foods not only allow our bodies to heal themselves, but are also so important for our planet.  I had a huge wake up call almost 6 years ago when I was diagnosed with cancer.  I thought I ate well.  Animal products, "foods" that I couldn't even read the label, processed "food" (what is that)?

I've had people say to me "I could never give up meat".  I'm sure that I felt the same way years ago.  Today I couldn't even imagine eating it.  Not only because the fact of the matter is, it's a dead animal and my body can't break that down but also because, I love all animals.  I don't care whether it's a dog, a cat, a pig, a cow etc....it's an animal. 

I invite you to take the time and watch a documentary called "Food Matters".  It's something that everyone should see.  Then you can make an informed decision on what is best for you.  I like most people just followed the 4 food groups because that's what I was taught and that's all I ever knew.  Then I watched the movie and everything I thought, came crumbling down.  I had to switch gears to ensure that i fuelled my body with the best food possible to ensure that I am living the healthiest life possible.

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A quote about how I am feeling...

Day 87 of my 365 day blog challenge

Life is so full of lessons.  I've said it so many time before that when the student is ready, the teacher appears.  Well it feels like for the last 2 years or so that i have been a full time student with an open heart who is ready to learn.  I have forgiven myself time and time again for the many years wasted and living a life where I have been waiting for the storm to pass. 

I blame myself for getting sick and having to take so many years off work to get well.  Why did  I need so much time? I was in treatment for almost 2 years but why am I now almost 3 years later after treatment just getting back to work full time? And my body is sooooo tired.  What happened to me? How did I allow this? I am not a lazy person.  I have always worked hard and never let anything get in the way of that.  I look back now and think to myself "what the heck was I doing"? I think that I was so mentally unwell that I couldn't even see it.  I have been fighting ever since to stay all around healthy.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.  I have been dancing for awhile now and I can't tell you how amazing it feels.  Sure sometimes the storm comes in and it's dark and hard to dance.  But I pick myself up, dust myself off and........dance!

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Where have the last 35 years gone....

Day 86 of my 365 day blog challenge

 

Have you ever looked back at your old pictures and thought "where has the time gone"? 35 years..35 years!!! Since this picture was taken.  I think I was about 5 years old.  If I were to see this little girl on the street today I would see a little tomboy and maybe a little gender confusion.  But I can't ever remember being confused and wanting to be a boy.  I always knew I was a girl and wanted to be one but I just preferred shopping in the boys department and hanging with them.  But now I do see how people may have been confused when I was young.  Though I didn't see it then and at times it was very difficult.  I was always defending myself.  It wasn't as accepted then and people didn't understand it.  I'm sure for the most part, people thought I was a boy.

 

I remember being at family picnics at age 8 or 9 and running around in swim shorts and no shirt just like the boys.  My parents and I never talked about my desire to wear boys clothes and baseball hats.  They just embraced me and went with it.  Sometimes I wonder if I ever let them down.  No pink dresses, no pig tails or nail painting.  Just ball caps, dirty nails and sweaty sports gear....lol

 

I hope that I have never let my parents down.  I feel so blessed that they loved me unconditionally and allowed me to be me.  Sure we had some tough times growing up as I'm sure all kids and parents do.  But they never tried to change me.  They were proud and likely didn't care what people thought.  My whole childhood I was told by others how cute I was.  I mean with that little androginist look, who could blame them ;)

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Brother's from another mother........:)

Day 85 of my 365 day blog challenge

So about a month ago I wrote a blog about our amazing story of how we were connected with Nathan's 1/2 brother (share the same donor).  It was actually my Day 13 blog so check it out to fully understand the story.

As you may or may not know Nathan was conceived via fertility clinic using an unknown Italian donor to resemble me.......clearly not..lol When we decided to have a child this way we knew that there was a possibility of connecting one day with a sibling.  We didn't know that it would have when Nathan was about 6 months old. 

Nathan and Christian has met each other a few times.  He lives out of Province but his Grandparents live within 15 minute's of us and we see them as often as we can.  This picture was taken this past weekend when the boys connected again at their Grandparents home.  Amazingly they are only 6 months apart in age.  It was so amazing to see them together now.  They were basically sitting on top of each other while this picture was taken and then sitting really close to watch a movie.  As they grow, we have no doubt that the boys will be close.  That's what we all want for them.  Grandad Mark can't wait to take his boys away next summer. 

Life happens in some pretty amazing ways.  If we didn't do that newspaper article back in 2006 and Granny Hawk, Auntie Barb and Granddad Mark didn't see it, this never would have happened.  We are so blessed!!! So thankful that the boys have each other.  They have a bond and an amazing story to share that will last their lifetime....

Giving thanks for Christian and the whole family that comes with him xoxo

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Never allow anyone to get in the way.......

Day 84 of my 365 day blog challenge

I know that I have talked before in a past blog about my passion and finding it.  I feel so blessed to have searched and searched and to have finally found it.  My passion and desire is to share my knowledge of Vegan raw/living foods with many.  My purpose is to empower others to make decisions in their own lives that will change the way the see food.

I have come such a long way and have had to make some tough decision's that haven't been easy.  A wise woman (my Mentor Lydia) once told me "do what you love and the money will come".  I feel so blessed to be able to go to work everyday and do what I love.  But this too comes with it's challenges.  I have been waiting my whole life for this.  My life's vision is to create my own business of reaching and helping others on their road to health.  I will!!!

Everyday I am faced with challenges.  I see them as just that.  A challenge....it's been a long time since someone I work with talked to me the way they did today.  I feel sad for him that he feels it's okay to be so angry with someone and personally attack them.  I stood my ground, didn't back down and will never allow him or ANYONE else to get in the way.  I am unstopable and whether I am where I am at today in my journey or somewhere else.  I am on a mission and I WILL have a business to call my own one day......I have so much to offer!!!

Never allow anyone to get in the way of your dreams.  Follow your heart and always believe in yourself!!

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Melissa Etheridge rocks!!!

Day 83 of my 365 day blog challenge

Love her or not it doesn't matter to me.  Melissa Etheridge Rocks!! I was introduced to Etheridge when I was 19 and landscaping.  She reminded me of Janis Joplin who I was listening to then.  I immediately went out and got her CD.  I've been to many of her concerts and just love her music. 

I would love to go and see her this year.  Haven't bought a ticket yet :( Something about her music just moves me......As for Melissa herself, she's not my type...lol

She has inspired me to learn guitar.  I've been wanting to learn for over 5 years now, but that's never happened.  I am going to promise and commit to myself that I will learn before this year is over!!! I even has an acoustic guitar that my cousin gave me so no more excuses!!  I will keep you updated on that!!!

Time to go and listen to some Etheridge.  You should check her out sometime if you haven't already.

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