Life is so full of lessons. I've said it so many time before that when the student is ready, the teacher appears. Well it feels like for the last 2 years or so that i have been a full time student with an open heart who is ready to learn. I have forgiven myself time and time again for the many years wasted and living a life where I have been waiting for the storm to pass.
I blame myself for getting sick and having to take so many years off work to get well. Why did I need so much time? I was in treatment for almost 2 years but why am I now almost 3 years later after treatment just getting back to work full time? And my body is sooooo tired. What happened to me? How did I allow this? I am not a lazy person. I have always worked hard and never let anything get in the way of that. I look back now and think to myself "what the heck was I doing"? I think that I was so mentally unwell that I couldn't even see it. I have been fighting ever since to stay all around healthy.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. I have been dancing for awhile now and I can't tell you how amazing it feels. Sure sometimes the storm comes in and it's dark and hard to dance. But I pick myself up, dust myself off and........dance!
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