What should have been..........

Day 101 of my 365 day blog challenge....

What should have been day 328 of my 365 day blog challenge is only day 101.  I guess I've missed a few days in between.  I would like to share why I stopped writing......

My last blog that I posted was on April 11, 2013.  This date is especially important because that's the day of my 6 year clear of cancer.  That might have also been a reason why I stopped.  Cancer! Fuckin Cancer (sorry to my 96 year old Auntie Edna).  Ya, there I said it! Every single minute of the day someone is talking about it. Parents are being told that there child isn't well.  Children are losing their parents.  Parents are losing their children.  Grandparents are losing their grandchildren and grandchildren are losing their grandparents.  Then there are the survivors.  The amazing survivors who fought and fought to stay alive and their friends and loved ones right by their side reminding them how much they are loved. 

I had just celebrated my 6 year clear of this crap! My life was on track.  I was happy, wasn't depressed and feeling optimistic. Then boom!!! My Mom whom I love deeply called to tell me she had cancer and has been given 3-6 months to live.  My whole world crumbled again in that moment......

I have so much more to share.  But I feel at this moment that's all I can give. 

So I hope that you will continue again to follow my blog.  You will never understand how much your support has meant to me.  So Thank You! I will continue to blog again.  I am still committed
to a 365 day blog.  I can't promise you that I will be writing every night.  But what I can promise is that I will do a 365 day blog but it might take me 3 years..........LOL

With much love and admiration,
T

A true test of strength.......

Day 100 of my 365 day blog challenge.....

So today I celebrate my 6 year clear of cancer.  I have been waiting for this day for a long time.  April 11 is a day that will forever be in my mind.  All kinds of emotions are running through me. But most of all, I am proud of myself. 

April 8 is now a day that will forever be in my mind.  A day that started again the true test of strength.  My best friend, confidant and the most amazing mom called to tell me that she now has a battle of her own.  I can't even spell that word when it comes to my mom.  I can't even think about it.  But I have to......

I am leaving tomorrow morning for an undetermined amount of time to go to Ontario.  I am leaving behind my own family to be right where I am mostly needed right now.......holding my moms hand.  She held mine and I will be right beside her.  I understand how scared she is.  I am too.........She's my mom and together we will heal..............

I will continue blogging updates about my beautiful mom from this day forward.  Please send her healing vibes, peace and love.  We have a big battle ahead, but the bond that we share will never be broken..

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Yet another challenge......

Day 99 of my 365 day blog challenge

Sorry that I haven't been able to upload the last 3 blogs from my phone.  I will have to figure it out as I will be away from the computer for awhile....

I am leaving Friday morning and going to Ontario.  I have just received some very unexpected and devastating news and my mom needs me right now.  I am not sure how long I will be with her and my family, but this isn't easy to leave Karen and Nathan right now.  I know that they are in good hands with our amazing Vancouver friends.

So I will keep you posted and continue my blog challenge as it unfolds...........

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

An unexpected message that warmed my heart.........

Day 96 of my 365 day blog challenge...

I was waiting until his birthday to write a post about another special guy in my life.  But then today an unexpected message was sent to me from him via facebook and it absolutely warmed my heart...

That cool guy dressed in the Caption America gear is my cousin Corey aka Corey Porne Jaffray Madore on facebook.  See I have 4 cousins (my aunt Cindy moms sister).  I've already written about the twins Mathieu and Jay and Christine.  I was waiting to write about Corey, but he sent me a message today that I just had to blog about.  Last year he went travelling and was living in London England for awhile.  He was working at a cinema and had the opportunity to sport this cool outfit when the movie came out.  This is so fitting for Corey and of course he looks awesome!!

I received a message from him today that really touched me.  As I said when I started this blog 96 days ago.  This will be a real challenge.  I mean 365 days!!! But I kicked cancer ass so blogging for 1 year shouldn't be a problem.....ha!! As many of you have commented and let me know that you have been reading my blogs and how you look forward to them.  I can't even tell you what that means to me.  I mean...wow!! But to receive a message today from my cousin who is young and caught up in his own life to take the time to sit down and send me a heartwarming message.............wow! He let me know that he reads my blogs daily and wanted me to know how amazing I am and how proud he is of me.  It honestly brought tears to my eyes.

Corey has always been such a sweet kid.  Good looking, intelligent, crazy and such a kind heart.  He is a gentle soul.  I was 17 when Corey was born and right from the start he had a piece of my heart.  It's just one of those things you can't explain.  He was like a little brother to me.  I watched him grow.  When I got sick, it was so hard for me to see them.  I knew that they always looked up to me and I never wanted them to see me that way.  We all embraced and I told them that I was going to be okay.  That's a promise I plan to keep. 

So this blog today is a tribute to my cousin Corey: You have grown from such a sweet little boy into an amazing man and I couldn't be more proud of you.  We don't have to talk for you to know how much you mean to me.  I support you and have an unconditional love.  Thank you for your amazing message that has lifted me up today.  Thank you for your words of encouragement to continue with my blog and conquer this challenge!! I miss you much and love you!!

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving so much thanks and sending much love!!!

The blog about nothing.......

Day 95 of my 365 day blog challenge

I have been sitting here for the last 15 minutes trying to figure out what to write about tonight.  I am at day 95!! I have been writing a blog everyday for the last 3 months...wow! That's an accomplishment in itself.  But i am really struggling right now to think of funny or interesting stories to write about.  Though I am watching the Canucks and Schneider made an awesome save right now :)

We do our best in this house not to miss a hockey game.  We are Canucks fans and love watching it.  It's usually a family event.  I remember growing up and watching Toronto with my dad.  It was a no brainer to flip teams when I moved to Vancouver.  I mean seriously, why would I cheer for the Maple Leafs.......LOL

Well Nathan is still up watching the game.  It's time to pause it and get him to bed.  Sorry it's not so interesting tonight.  My mind is tired and that's okay...

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

What is your health worth?

Day 94 of my 365 day blog challenge

The body is your temple, keep it pure and clean for the soul to reside in........I met someone many, many years ago who once said to me "my body is my temple so I don't drink alcohol".  I thought she was crazy.  Almost 20 years later, I finally understand it.  She was a wise woman.  Our bodies are our temples.  Fuel them with whole foods, yoga, meditation and exercise and they repay you with great health.  Eat "foods" that you know aren't good for you, don't exercise and your body with repay you with disease and illness.  So what is your health worth? Are you mindful of what you fuel your body with? Or do you think that you are untouchable and you are going to die anyways so you might as well enjoy it.

I always remember my dad telling me that he will only live to be 52 years old.  Not a great thing to say to your kids.  He ate anything and everything.  Then around age 61 he had a heart attack.  Scared the shit out of him for long enough to change his eating for about 1 month.  Then sadly he went back to his ways.  Though he did quit smoking after smoking 2 packs per day since he was 15 years old....amazing!! Then when he was 67 he had another heart attack and passed away a few days later :( What was his health worth to him? He always said "when my numbers up it's up".  I wonder when he was waiting for the ambulance after his heart attack if he wished he had made a few more changes along the way........I'm sure he did :(

So what is your health worth? Life is worth living and that's what it's for.  But I know first hand that when you are diagnosed with something and facing death, the last thing you want to say to yourself is "I wish I did things different".   You never want to hear the words from a doctor "you have cancer or I'm sorry there's nothing we can do".  Because that's an oh shit moment.  By then it's too late to turn back the clock. 

The body is your temple, keep it pure and clean for the soul to reside in.  What is your health worth?

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  To good health!!! Giving thanks!!

What to write about tonight

Day 93 of my 365 day blog challenge

When did life get so busy? Karen is just getting home after leaving for work at 8:30am this morning and I too have just sat down after getting up at 5:00am! What the heck is going on???

When I think back to only 2 years ago.  I would spend my time spinning my wheels trying to find the strength within to motivate and function in life.  Now I'm up with the birds, going all days none stop and relaxing at 9:30 at night.  I am in no way complaining.  Happy to be in a good space now.  Does anyone else feel this way? I need a vacation!! Any offers?

Do you ever feel like life is passing you by? Or feel like you are simply existing and not living? Simply existing is not good enough!! I want to live life to it's fullest! I want to experience all that I can experience and give Nathan those same experiences.  I want to travel the world and go live on an island somewhere with the locals.  Or build homes from families.  My dreams are to help others live happier, healthier lives.  I want to do more public speaking again in front of crowds of thousands!!! These are some of my goals and dreams that I am working towards.  I have waited too much time being sick!! I have a lot to make up for :)

Do you have any questions for me? or something you don't know about me that you are curious about? I'd love to blog about it!!!

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Dancing with the boyz.......

Day 92 of my 365 day blog challenge

I think this picture was taken when I was in grade 6.  Dancing with the boyz.....Look at those short shorts, the awesome shoes and the big white socks pushed down.  I was cooler than the guy in the plastic leather pants and shades.....lol  I'm not sure what we were doing.  I think it was someones birthday party.....lol

I'm pretty sure I kissed every single one on those boyz...lol Guess I was trying to find myself and figure out my way.  I realized pretty quickly that I was more interested in playing sports etc with them then kissing them :)

I was the sporty girl of the group in case you didn't notice.  I always had the lastest shoes, hats etc... Pretty sure I even had a pair of those "leather pants".  I wore a lot of hats, Adidas/Nike track pants and apparently short shorts..:) I never understood "girls" clothes.  Why the dresses, the flowers, the pink, the shoes......ughhh Thankfully my parents understood me and I was able to wear my hockey jerseys with my hat on backwards...lol  Always felt so comfortable and never ever cared what people thought.  Tough skin that's for sure.   Put me in "boys" clothes and I was happy! Didn't want to be a boy, just felt more comfortable in the clothes.  Even today though I do buy girls jeans, I make sure they fit a little more loose.  As for t-shirts.........in the boyz department :)

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Where it all started.........

Day 92 of my 365 day blog challenge

This is where it all started...lol Nathan's first baseball bat.  It was a little silly then and not as serious as we are now :)

We are a baseball family!!! We practice 2 nights a week and play on Saturdays and Sundays.  When we are not with our team, you can find us at the diamond at Troutlake playing catch or watching another team.  Soccer is fun and Nathan enjoys it, but when it's ball season that's all he wants to do.

I remember the same childhood memories playing ball every chance i had.  It's just a fun game.  Yes, at times it can be a little boring but fun.  Once again, my dad taught me everything I know.  I sometimes find myself coaching the same way he did too :)

Come out and catch a game this summer at Troutlake.  Some good ball with the kids and a nice way to spend a sunny day! 

Thanks for reading,sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

As I sit I am surrounded by technology...

Day 91 of my 365 day blog challenge

As i sit here on my sofa watching the hockey game and thinking about what to blog.  I look beside me and I see my phone, the remote for the tv, Nathan's Samsung tablet and I'm typing on the laptop.  Seriously? Am I missing anything? The wii is turned off right now. But seriously, am I missing anything or have I covered it all?

I remember when pagers were cool........lol I also remember when I bought my first cell phone.  The big ones that you carried and they plugged into your cigarette lighter in your car.  I had a jeep then and I just bought the phone.  I had the roof off and I put the phone on the dash all cool I'm sure.  Went around a corner, the phone flew out the open window and as I watched it in the rear view mirror, a truck came by and crushed it.......LOL I was heartbroken!!!

Our kids know too much.  Youtube, the internet, iphones, tablets, DS, Wii, techno, thechno, techno!! Wowza!! Nathan loves watching youtube to learn about skylanders, annoying orange videos, mario bros, you name it.  But we can't protect him from it.  It's all around us. 

Thankfully Nathan is an extremely active boy.  He does get a lot of screen time but there's a good balance between that and other things.  He reads, he plays, he's active and loves the Internet and that's okay.

So for now I am putting it all away for tonight.  Shutting down the laptop, turning off the phone, watching the Canucks and then going to bed!!!

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Too sore to type tonight........

Day 89 of my 365 day blog challenge....

We played baseball today with Nathan and my wrists are super sore.  I'm sure that I have arthritis right now in my wrists and hands.  Swinging the bat, catching the ball and throwing was just too much for me to handle today.  They have been sore for about a week now.  So, it's late and I'm sore so I'm done for tonight.  Too sore to type and need to rest.

Sorry, still trying to understand this pain and figure out how to best manage it.

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Easter dinner isn't what it use to be...and i couldn't be happier

Day 88 of my 365 day blog challenge

My opinions and my beliefs are just that...mine :) I am not judging anyone with this blog but rather voicing my opinion.  With that said, read on if you may...lol

I have spent that last 30+ years of my life eating everything under the sun.  Meat, dairy, sugar, wheat, cola, crappy chocolates, chips etc etc......I never really noticed that I felt like crap until I decided one day to cut it all out! I have never looked back and nor do I feel the need too.  "Food" isn't what it use to be.  Today it's a multi-trillion dollar industry, most of it is made in a factory and it has so many ingredients in it that we can't even recognise it anymore.  More and more people are getting sick, cancer, strokes, heart disease and an overall general feeling of being unwell.   

I know that there are people who don't yet understand the concept of simply eating Organic Vegan raw fruits, vegetables, nuts and seeds.  Understanding that a whole food is simply that, a whole food.  A pepper is a pepper, an apple is an apple.  Nothing changed or added.  Fuelling our bodies with these foods not only allow our bodies to heal themselves, but are also so important for our planet.  I had a huge wake up call almost 6 years ago when I was diagnosed with cancer.  I thought I ate well.  Animal products, "foods" that I couldn't even read the label, processed "food" (what is that)?

I've had people say to me "I could never give up meat".  I'm sure that I felt the same way years ago.  Today I couldn't even imagine eating it.  Not only because the fact of the matter is, it's a dead animal and my body can't break that down but also because, I love all animals.  I don't care whether it's a dog, a cat, a pig, a cow etc....it's an animal. 

I invite you to take the time and watch a documentary called "Food Matters".  It's something that everyone should see.  Then you can make an informed decision on what is best for you.  I like most people just followed the 4 food groups because that's what I was taught and that's all I ever knew.  Then I watched the movie and everything I thought, came crumbling down.  I had to switch gears to ensure that i fuelled my body with the best food possible to ensure that I am living the healthiest life possible.

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!!

A quote about how I am feeling...

Day 87 of my 365 day blog challenge

Life is so full of lessons.  I've said it so many time before that when the student is ready, the teacher appears.  Well it feels like for the last 2 years or so that i have been a full time student with an open heart who is ready to learn.  I have forgiven myself time and time again for the many years wasted and living a life where I have been waiting for the storm to pass. 

I blame myself for getting sick and having to take so many years off work to get well.  Why did  I need so much time? I was in treatment for almost 2 years but why am I now almost 3 years later after treatment just getting back to work full time? And my body is sooooo tired.  What happened to me? How did I allow this? I am not a lazy person.  I have always worked hard and never let anything get in the way of that.  I look back now and think to myself "what the heck was I doing"? I think that I was so mentally unwell that I couldn't even see it.  I have been fighting ever since to stay all around healthy.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.  I have been dancing for awhile now and I can't tell you how amazing it feels.  Sure sometimes the storm comes in and it's dark and hard to dance.  But I pick myself up, dust myself off and........dance!

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks.

Where have the last 35 years gone....

Day 86 of my 365 day blog challenge

 

Have you ever looked back at your old pictures and thought "where has the time gone"? 35 years..35 years!!! Since this picture was taken.  I think I was about 5 years old.  If I were to see this little girl on the street today I would see a little tomboy and maybe a little gender confusion.  But I can't ever remember being confused and wanting to be a boy.  I always knew I was a girl and wanted to be one but I just preferred shopping in the boys department and hanging with them.  But now I do see how people may have been confused when I was young.  Though I didn't see it then and at times it was very difficult.  I was always defending myself.  It wasn't as accepted then and people didn't understand it.  I'm sure for the most part, people thought I was a boy.

 

I remember being at family picnics at age 8 or 9 and running around in swim shorts and no shirt just like the boys.  My parents and I never talked about my desire to wear boys clothes and baseball hats.  They just embraced me and went with it.  Sometimes I wonder if I ever let them down.  No pink dresses, no pig tails or nail painting.  Just ball caps, dirty nails and sweaty sports gear....lol

 

I hope that I have never let my parents down.  I feel so blessed that they loved me unconditionally and allowed me to be me.  Sure we had some tough times growing up as I'm sure all kids and parents do.  But they never tried to change me.  They were proud and likely didn't care what people thought.  My whole childhood I was told by others how cute I was.  I mean with that little androginist look, who could blame them ;)

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!

Brother's from another mother........:)

Day 85 of my 365 day blog challenge

So about a month ago I wrote a blog about our amazing story of how we were connected with Nathan's 1/2 brother (share the same donor).  It was actually my Day 13 blog so check it out to fully understand the story.

As you may or may not know Nathan was conceived via fertility clinic using an unknown Italian donor to resemble me.......clearly not..lol When we decided to have a child this way we knew that there was a possibility of connecting one day with a sibling.  We didn't know that it would have when Nathan was about 6 months old. 

Nathan and Christian has met each other a few times.  He lives out of Province but his Grandparents live within 15 minute's of us and we see them as often as we can.  This picture was taken this past weekend when the boys connected again at their Grandparents home.  Amazingly they are only 6 months apart in age.  It was so amazing to see them together now.  They were basically sitting on top of each other while this picture was taken and then sitting really close to watch a movie.  As they grow, we have no doubt that the boys will be close.  That's what we all want for them.  Grandad Mark can't wait to take his boys away next summer. 

Life happens in some pretty amazing ways.  If we didn't do that newspaper article back in 2006 and Granny Hawk, Auntie Barb and Granddad Mark didn't see it, this never would have happened.  We are so blessed!!! So thankful that the boys have each other.  They have a bond and an amazing story to share that will last their lifetime....

Giving thanks for Christian and the whole family that comes with him xoxo

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving much, much thanks!!

Never allow anyone to get in the way.......

Day 84 of my 365 day blog challenge

I know that I have talked before in a past blog about my passion and finding it.  I feel so blessed to have searched and searched and to have finally found it.  My passion and desire is to share my knowledge of Vegan raw/living foods with many.  My purpose is to empower others to make decisions in their own lives that will change the way the see food.

I have come such a long way and have had to make some tough decision's that haven't been easy.  A wise woman (my Mentor Lydia) once told me "do what you love and the money will come".  I feel so blessed to be able to go to work everyday and do what I love.  But this too comes with it's challenges.  I have been waiting my whole life for this.  My life's vision is to create my own business of reaching and helping others on their road to health.  I will!!!

Everyday I am faced with challenges.  I see them as just that.  A challenge....it's been a long time since someone I work with talked to me the way they did today.  I feel sad for him that he feels it's okay to be so angry with someone and personally attack them.  I stood my ground, didn't back down and will never allow him or ANYONE else to get in the way.  I am unstopable and whether I am where I am at today in my journey or somewhere else.  I am on a mission and I WILL have a business to call my own one day......I have so much to offer!!!

Never allow anyone to get in the way of your dreams.  Follow your heart and always believe in yourself!!

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks and sharing love!!

Melissa Etheridge rocks!!!

Day 83 of my 365 day blog challenge

Love her or not it doesn't matter to me.  Melissa Etheridge Rocks!! I was introduced to Etheridge when I was 19 and landscaping.  She reminded me of Janis Joplin who I was listening to then.  I immediately went out and got her CD.  I've been to many of her concerts and just love her music. 

I would love to go and see her this year.  Haven't bought a ticket yet :( Something about her music just moves me......As for Melissa herself, she's not my type...lol

She has inspired me to learn guitar.  I've been wanting to learn for over 5 years now, but that's never happened.  I am going to promise and commit to myself that I will learn before this year is over!!! I even has an acoustic guitar that my cousin gave me so no more excuses!!  I will keep you updated on that!!!

Time to go and listen to some Etheridge.  You should check her out sometime if you haven't already.

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks

Songs carry such depth.......

Day 81 of my 365 day blog challenge

I heard this song "I hope you dance" on the radio the other day and I hadn't heard it for a long time.  Regardless what you think about this kind of music (I enjoy a wide range) for me the lyrics were so powerful! I have to admit that when I was going through chemotherapy, this way one of the songs that keep me going.  If you take a moment to listen to the lyrics, I'm sure you would understand why.  The power of music. 

Everyone has that special song that reminds them of their first love or their breakup song.  Wedding song or pump up song.  You know I am now going to lead into a story........lol

When I was in Grade school walking around with my Getttoooo blaster on my shoulder (yes, I was one of those).  My Nanny bought me the biggest one should could find and I'm sure it needed about 12 D batteries.....lol I was at school and playing my tunes at lunch on the play ground.  Then, I don't know what happened but an argument started between myself and someone else.  Well, I put down my getto blaster, hit play on the dual cassette deck and blaster Pat Benetars "Hit me with your best shot" or yes I did.....5 minutes later I was in the principals office losing my getto blaster and explaining my actions.........LOL

Joan Jett "I love Rock and Roll".  I remember I must have been about 11 years old and I was given the 45 album of that song.  It was my birthday party and our house was full.  We were dancing and singing all day long.......lol

Last and best childhood memory song for now....."We are the champions" Ya, whether it was baseball or hockey I remember playing that song over and over in the dugout or dressing room.  The little bugger in me was probably chanting it.....:)

There's many song lyrics out there that remind us of different times in our lives.  It doesn't matter what kind of music it is, it connects us.

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!!

Being responsible for another life......

Day 80 of my 365 day blog challenge

At times when I actually think about it, I am a mom.  I am responsible for Nathan.  Responsible to ensure that he has all that life has to offer.  To love him unconditionally and encourage him and support him.  Me.........I am a parent.  Who allowed such a thing......LOL

I often wonder what his childhood memories are going to be.  I know he loves his moms so much and we know the importance for him to be surrounded by positive male influences.  He has that. 

I remember in school I was given an egg (as a baby) to take care of as part of a project we were doing.  I dropped it within the first 5 minutes.....lol I know, I went to a trade school........don't ask..lol

This little guy is my greatest joy! I know that I have said this before, but wow! He is my strength...

Today my mom asked said to me that she doesn't know how I can think of something to write everyday.  I told her that I have a lot to tell!! She laughed and said yes :) As I said before, I was a good kid but I definitely had a tough side (in case you didn't notice).  I had a curfew (obied it), didn't party and never got into trouble at school.  Okay, that last part was a lie.......I had to call my mom on a few occasions from High school before the principle got to her first.  Yes, I was suspended a few times.  But that's because I was always protecting the kids that were being picked on.  I didn't take any crap from anyone then.  So, I would call my mom and she would come and pick me up.  We would go to lunch, the mall etc for the next 3 days and never told my dad....lol



We may or may not have our hands full with Nathan when he heads into his teenage years.  All I know is that Karen and I work hard everyday to ensure that we are setting a solid foundation for him.  We will always love him unconditionally.  We made that promise to him the day we welcomed him into our world.

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks and much love!!

Power within........

Day 79 of my 365 day blog challenge...

When I tell people that I get up at 4:30 or 5:00am usually their first reaction is why??? That's crazy is usually what comes next.  Then they say, "not me I love my sleep".  I say sleep is overrated! :) Does my body need rest? Absolutely! It aches and I have pains and it's tired.  But I function best on 6 hrs.  Besides I have way too much to do in this life and if I spend only 5-6 hrs resting, then I still have 19 hrs in the day to achieve!!

I sometimes feel like I lost years of my life battling cancer, then depression.  I work hard every single day on my self.  Getting up early allows me to do my meditation practice, stretch, exercise, work on my goals and dreams.  All of this before leaving for work at 7:30am.  Even on my days off, this is my routine and practice.

For so many years I have been lost.  Never really knowing where I fit in or belong.  What were my dreams, my goals?.  What do I want for my life? I mean beating cancer must mean something right? It isn't easy some days to do all that I need to do to ensure that I am staying on the right track.  It takes hard work, discipline and believing in myself that I will continue to persist until I succeed.  I will not stop until I am completely satisfied with where my life is at!  

I am so grateful that I have such an amazing spouse who has allowed and embraced this journey that I'm on.  Digging deep within myself and doing work that needs to be done hasn't always been pretty.  Karen has been there through it all.  I heard a famous quote the other day and parts of it really rang true.

Marilyn Monroe:
I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.  I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.  But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best!

Thanks Karen for weathering all the storms with me xoxo

Thanks for reading, sharing and commenting.  Giving thanks!!