Mom, I'm pregnant....

Day 14 of my 365 day blog challenge.

This picture was taken at Halloween in 1995.  That's me the pirate at 23 years old with my buddy Edit.  I didn't mean Edith, her name is Edit (pronounced Eat it). We were heading out to a club called The Rose (gay club) to party.  I'm sure I thought I was hot.....LOL

Unlike Jodie Foster, I came out to my mom at 19 years old :)  I knew that I needed to tell her though I wasn't sure how I was going to do that.  After giving it much thought, I sat her down on the sofa across from me.  Mom, I have something to tell you.....I'm pregnant.  As she let out a big gasp and covered her mouth,  I said "I'm just kidding, I'm gay"....LOL Then the tears really started to roll.  In between crying she asked "what did she do wrong"? I told her that she didn't do anything wrong.  That I always knew from a very young age that something felt different.  After she stopped crying she hugged me and said "don't tell your father".  So we didn't, for 2 more years....

I remember being in grade 1 and thinking that the girls were so pretty.  Throughout my childhood, I had always felt that way.  I always hung out with the boys playing baseball, hockey, racing our BMX bikes.  Just like the boys, I too wanted the attention of the girls.  I never identified myself as gay.  I just knew that I liked girls, whatever that meant.  I did have one boyfriend in high school, but that was a cover to hide the fact that I liked my best friend.  I started dating girls at 19 when I went to my first gay club with my buddy Edit.  I felt very comfortable, like it was where I belonged.  I knew felt that need to announce to everyone I met that I was gay.  Even today, it's not what defines me rather simply a part of who I am.

I have so much more to say but I will have to continue this tomorrow.  5am comes way too fast :)
To be continued......

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